Last night...

... I had sex with a chick a couple of times, then while she was in the toilet I sent a goodnight mail to a different chick I picked up during the day. I got on the computer and tried to finalize the curriculum I plan to be teaching with some guys this weekend at a Nampa course I'm co-instructing. Woke up this morning, had more sex, said goodbye, worked on a report for a few hours, watched some porn, then went to work.

Something tells me this isn't normal human behavior...

Especially the watching of porn after having sex all night and morning...

Not like I usually behave like this...

Looks like spring is completely here. Thank fuck. Goodbye you piece of shit winter, nobody wanted you here in the first place anyway.

Rock chick Vs Metal chick

I met up with the rock chick. It was the first time we have seen each other since that time over a month ago. She greeted me with a present, a T-shirt she bought while in New York, and took me to a rock concert and paid for the tickets. Thanks rock chick! I didn't even think I was going to see you again since you ignored all my mails for the longest time.

She was cute, happy and ditsy. She also wore the brightest red of reds lipstick which ended up all over my face. I love her kissing. She has such good skill as a kisser, totally rare amongst Japanese girls, but at the same time she claims to be a virgin. I don't get it...

We watched the rock show then I took her to dinner. We sat in corner seats by the window, side by side, playing with each others hands and secretly making out, only to be interrupted by the staff every 5 minutes who wanted to know if we needed anything. Hahaha. So teenagerish. And me with her red lipstick rubbed off onto my lips and my cheesy big grin smiling at the staff was not going down well. Ha! We never ended up back at my apartment having any sex. Actually, to be honest, I don't think we ever will. Something tells me I'm going to completely forget about this girl in a few moments since she doesn't reply to my mails and won't sleep with me and there really is no reason for me to bother being stringed on like this when there are girls out there who actually want to progress a relationship beyond teenager like dating that can only be categorized as 'cute'.

I've been hooking up with the Metal chick also. She is different in that she can't kiss well, and is mostly silent and boring. But her tits are some of the best I've experienced here. Last time we met I decided to do some really extended foreplay and we ended up in the shower getting thoroughly soaped up. I was just there for a looooong time soaping and soaping them and then soaping those tits some more, while she soaped me and my hardness up. The feeling of running my hands all over her smooth and soapy body didn't lose its wonder. She kept at me with her hands with precision and skill until she felt the urge to use her inner thighs on my junk. It was without a doubt, some of the most erotic foreplay I've had with a firm breasted, white skinned metal chick inside a shower. Ace.

I've also been meeting up with a nurse who is mostly fun to be around and very much porn quality in her sexual performance. Like the metal chick, I like her in small doses however. There is a spark that doesn't ignite when I'm with her the same way that spark lit up every moment I was with my last girlfriend. How can I still be pinning over her a year later?....

In other news, Cecil appeared in one of the popular gal magazines this month. If you go to a convenience store and pick up every gal magazine and look at every chick in them you can let your curiosity wonder over which girl it is I picked up in a subway a year ago and have been seeing on and off since. Man, looking at her pics makes me wanna see her so bad. Next time I do I'm gonna get so ero on her.

Homo!

Within this blog I have explored my straight, hetro side, but never my gay side. The truth is, some guys think I'm a homo. Other guys think the opposite and that I'm homophobic. Some girls think I'm a closet gay. Generally though, I think most people see me as a normal straight guy, which I am.

Its funny to hear these opinions, but mostly I don't care what people think about me unless it affects my life, and the good thing about living in Japan is that what most people think will never affect me in anyway. I just do what the fuck I want.

So to be clear about me and homosexuality, I think of it like American football: not something I'm interested in, nor scared of, but it does look painful and not fun at all so I'd rather not participate. Its really not something I even think about at all.

On the contrary, there are times when I am forced to discuss gay issues. A few years ago, I was really confronted by a Japanese lady who I had been teaching for a while. She was in her 40's and as I found out later was on the brink of a divorce. She was paying me a lot of money to talk with her, which I was happy to do but a little shocked when she accused me of being gay.

"Its OK, I accept that Foreign people are different to Japanese people. I accept that you are gay. I'm not a closed minded Japanese person like the rest of them. I am different."
"Huh? what are you talking about?"
"You are gay, right?"
"What the hell!! No! You have got me all wrong!"
"Don't worry, I accept you. You don't need to deny your true self. Just be who you really are."
"I am..."

If I'm gay there is a league of women out there that should be very confused about the sex we had....

The conversation continued nonetheless, and I gave up trying to convince her otherwise since she seemed to have her mind set. She explained to me that as a women she had special women's intuition, something that men don't have or understand, this intuition tells her that I am gay. I asked her if it was possible to know for sure whether or not men had this intuition if she had never experienced being a man. She explained that men don't understand emotions and don't have intuition. End of story. I was beginning to think that she was referring to emotional intelligence, a type of empathetic understanding of others feelings based on vocal tonality, body language and facial expression, something that anyone can develop regardless of gender. And since I had this awareness, a mostly feminine trait, she was confusing it with homosexuality. She couldn't pin this down or understand the concept but went further to clarify.

"I think its because you are foreign, tall, blond and good looking. ALL good looking foreign blond men are gay."

AWESOME CLAIM !

I love this so much for its solid entertainment value. She had me in stitches. There I was, a pretty, young, blond foreign "homo" in the coffee shop with a middle aged Japanese mother, keeled over in a hysterical fit of laughter.

After recovering and catching my breath I explained that blond hair and blue eyes are a recessive gene, and that the reason I look the way I do is because a man with blond hair and blue eyes, my father, impregnated my mother, a woman who also has blue eyes but a slightly darker shade of brown hair. I couldn't look the way I do without parents with similar physical traits. Fucking obvious, but that was a blond man having hetro sex there. All the people of the world who look like this come about from the possibility of straight blond men. How is it possible for all these gay men to be having marriages and families?

"All blond and blue eyed men have sex only for making children. They don't enjoy it. On the inside they want to be with other men. You are the same."

I am not joking. This is actually what she said. This 40 something year old women had the world figured out perfectly. The retartedness is beyond belief and I wonder how pervasive this idea is among Japanese obasans..

My analysis of the situation: she wanted to screw me but knew I wasn't down so made up the scenario that I was gay to justify to herself that was the reason it wasn't going to happen and claimed 'female intuition' rather than face reality: Ransom doesn't sex ugly old women.

*The girl in the photo above is Risa Kasumi an AV (adult video) star. I like the elegance she brings to her performance and would love to watch something of her's right now, but I'm going on a porn strike for a while, just to see what happens. I tried it before and gave up, but this time I'm serious!