Recent things that piss me off and make me happy

Things that piss me off;

-Student complained and gave me a negative evaluation. Good work bitch. I was working hard to hit my lesson target so I could get the bonus and now I won't get it because of you. Your reason for complaining; I wasn't smiling. What the fuck has that got to do with language acquisition? You want to study language, right? My facial expression has fuckall to do with that. Suckit and stop being so sensitive. Do you know how impossible it is to smile 10 hours a day, constantly?

-Student asked me out. It happens from time to time. But really, are you serious girl? I'm smiling and happy being nice to you because if I'm not, you won't book lessons with me and I won't get paid- worst case is you will complain and like that other bitch and you will cost me money. I act like I care about the boring shit you do in your life. I act like I'm interested. Get that, I'm acting. It's not real. Now if I say "no" to you, you won't book my lessons again, costing me money, and if I say yes, you won't book me again because you can get me for free! The best I can do is string you along and act like I'm oblivious to your advances. Try to make you think there is still a chance. Don't put me in this situation and recognize that our time together is made possible only because you pay large sums of money to make it happen. On top of that, what's with you flirting with every other guy in the place? It doesn't bother me whatsoever, but not really a good tactic by you. You don't like me, you like getting attention, and I give it, we all give it. Without money, it won't happen. End of story. While I'm at it, a keyword you should think over; "Dental floss."
Just think about it plaquey.

-Ex GF logged into facebook, changed her profile pic and said that she never uses FB. She only uses ameba. She put up a link and I checked it out. She looks good. Real good. I saw a ring on her left hand ring finger. I guess she got what she was looking for within a year. Someone to marry before she gets too old..... (26). Hot chicks can do that easily I guess. Whatever. Her diary sux. "Today I ate cake with my friends, went shopping then went to a golf lesson and drove around in my sports car." It never fucking changes. Your life is luxurious, but it's boring and predictable!
I saw a pic of her new guy. I guess he is good looking... Probably nice..... Intelligent....Charming.... funny....rich.....

Asshole.

I wonder if it's the guy she broke up with to hook up with me all that time ago?

I'm obviously not completely over her.

Things that make me happy;

-Beer. Always good. Even better in summer and even better when I'm pissed off.

-Summer. I love it. Beach parties. Drinking beer on the beach. Going outside and doing stuff. Not having to wear jackets or neckties and cruising around comfortably at night in short sleeves. Being at the beach does make me a little homesick and I want to go surfing. I miss waves.

-Festivals. Went last week. Watched fireworks. Ate festival food. Battled the crowds. Drank beer and ended up having Yukata sex. Hell yea. Yukata sex. So Japanesey. Haahaha. Yukatas are so hot.

-English. I love my language. It's so cool but I feel I'm losing touch with it. The only English I hear is slow boring simple English from students and most of the English I read is informative non fiction. On the rare occasions I see a comedy, or a drama in English I renew my love for my language.

-Japanese. It's so different to English. That makes it cool. I like to study Japanese and use it as much as possible.

-Being a geek. Just because I sleep with ridiculously hot chicks doesn't mean I'm a not a geek. I like to play Street fighter or Tekken every now and then at the game arcade. Some guy who kicks ass usually joins in and challenges me and then kicks my ass, which makes me wish he woulda just used a different console instead of chopping my game short, but I only play one or two games before I get bored. I also watch a ton of anime- it's good for study and entertaining at the same time.

My favorite source of protection

I love them so much I went onto Amazon and ordered 6 boxes. Each box loaded with 12 units of sexual protection. I was going to put up a link and try to earn some sales commission or something, but it's too difficult right now. So I'll just say this- these condoms are the best! They aren't rubber but a kind of plastic. They don't smell like rubber and they don't cut out almost all of the the sensation of sex like standard condoms do. The pack is easy to open and they are easy to put on unlike rubber condoms that are sometimes difficult to unroll.

With the good point of less friction, there is also the bad point of less friction. Over extended love sessions where the tension of my cock may change and lose some firmness, there is the chance the condom will fall off. This will happen with rubber condoms too and has only happened to me once or twice before last night. When it happened last night, I told my girl to chill and I went in and pulled it out with my finger. This kind of thing does freak me out a bit, considering that I was going to finish in that position with her riding on top of me, but I changed plan and position and pushed her onto her side and noticed I was bare. So the best practice is to keep your cock hard and change condoms if it goes down over the marathon sessions. This is recommended by all condom makers.

Anyway, these things happen and I still love these condoms!

Japanese image of sex appeal

Once upon a time, long long ago, in a country far from Japan, I was an innocent young boy who looked at a Japanese woman with eyes of curiosity. What was this figure? Why were her eyes so different in color and shape to mine? Why was her hair so black and straight while her skin so pale? Why couldn't she speak properly and why did I have to bother to learn her stupid language? I was never going to need to use it. It was a useless waste of time.

I was looking at the language teacher who came in to teach my 5th grade class the Japanese language and culture. I hated language class. My mother tried to help me study for the test and made me learn the basic characters but I still sucked and barely scraped a pass. I was happy when the Japanese class ended and was replaced with Italian. I kicked butt at Italian but I turned out to be completely wrong about never needing the Japanese language.

When I got into middle high school an immigrant Thai girl in the grade above had the hots for me and asked me out. I was a bit reluctant at first since she wasn't my nationality. But I ended up going out with her because I had no reason not to and if I looked closely, she was just like the other white girls, only, her tan covered her whole body (hot!) and her eyes, although they were different, seemed kind of mysterious. She was cute too!

I mostly dated girls older than me after that point up until recently, but never really sought out Asian girls after her. I did notice that I found myself interested in them when they showed up around the place. So different from the western figure I knew so well.

It was a short while after I actually came to Japan that I found an interest in Japanese women. At first I was shocked by how small in stature they were. They all looked like children and not yet matured into adults. And why did they carry sun umbrellas and try to keep white skin? Tans are sexy! Yet after some weeks of being immersed in them, and having a severe lack of western options, I noticed myself starting to distinguish between the ones that drew my attention more and I felt some attraction rise in me.

Through conversation with locals about girls and guys and through my own eyes I started to notice the distinguishing features of what makes a Japanese woman attractive and the contrast in this to the western ideals.

Western men generally prefer sexy and sultry looking 'sport models' who don't look as though they will snap in half or go running in fear if you throw a volley ball in their direction. Long hair, tight stomach, and busty cleavage is essential.

The Japanese image of sex appeal has some similarity and some contrasts. Although long hair, tight stomach, and busty cleavage is a plus, many men prefer an innocent looking, child like face in place of a sultry women comfortable in her sex appeal. A woman with the look of bewilderment struck upon her, reminiscent of Bambi prancing though the meadows allows the the men to feel that she is friendly approachable, and will be easily pleased at our lame attempts at humor.

While Caucasian people see a variety of body shape, hair style, hair color and eye color, the distinguishing features of Japanese women is a lot less prominent and making themselves distinguished from one another through grooming is big business. However, there are natural features that they focus in on a lot further than western people notice.

The size of one's face, eyes and mouth seem to be very important. While I had never looked at a woman, or a man and thought to myself, "Wow, his/her face is small." It seems that due to the influence of living here, I am often looking at face size and making judgments upon that. Small face with big round eyes and large mouth- that is cute according to Japan.

Men also share the some similar attractive qualities. Whist broad shouldered hardened men with chiseled abs and a prominent jaw line would be extremely sought after in the west, this image of "macho" leaves many Japanese women feeling overwhelmed and from what I hear, scared. Sorry JonnyGuns. Your stature is too intimidating for most and the gap between you and Japan will be hard to close without a decent grip on the language. You might find an English speaking girl that has studied abroad and is used to the macho culture, but most likely she won't be as attractive as the girl who never stepped outside Japan.

What these girls often idolize is a sweet young nice guy with well maintained hair and slightly groomed eyebrows. Something very important is the appearance of kindness. It seems they want someone they imagine they could be comfortable with. A small face with big eyes, a friendly smile that doesn't come out too often in order to maintain the aura of cool, are just a few of Kimutaku's (one of Japan's biggest male celebrities) main charm points. He also keeps his fashion changing to keep up with the times and to cover his slight frame and lean build. And although he wears a hell of a lot of really crappy fashion mistakes, no one seems to mind because he balances it out by wearing the pain stuff too.

My take on all of this is that I'm still pretty foreign in the fact that I'm not incredibly interested in the 'I'm a sweet innocent child' look that many girls try to create. When they act like children it often comes across as contrived in order to get away with something and is about as attractive as a guy acting tough to garnish attention from women. I prefer the women I date to have some semblance of independence and comfort in their sexuality.

In terms of my look, I go halfway and have a physique what the Japanese call 'hosomacho' which basically means lean and athletic. I work out to some degree, but don't go nuts like I used to. My face is small and my eyes are obviously big and round because I'm foreign. To the people here, I look like an animation or game character. As for my fashion, I like to get into the clothes they sell here. I've always been interested in different ways of dressing and being in Japan allows me to try all sorts of styles without being attacked on the street for looking like I'm 'trying to be a rockstar'. But since I quit my rock band earlier this year, I've been changing my fashion a little. I might do some more posts on fashion in the future because I really like Japanese fashion, but I also really hate Japanese fashion. The vest is fine, but you won't see me wearing that shirt that Kimura is wearing in the photo above. Yikes!

I'm just not the jealous type

My friends lead me on to this audio file. It's basically Mel Gibson going off at a chick because of her sexy and provocative appearance. He loses his cool like a teenage bitch and starts getting emotional like a girl and then he complains about the provocative way the woman dresses and throws in some racism to top the cake. Everything he says is basically an indicator of his own insecurity about sex and other races.

I am the complete opposite to this guy. I want my chicks to look as sexy and provocative as they possible can (depending on the situation). You don't like fake boobs? Good! I'll take them.

The nailist was wearing super short shorts the other week showing off her long tanned legs and she asked me if they were ok. She asked me if I was angry about their length. "They aren't too short?" I was like, "hell no! In fact I think they need to be shorter!"
"But I already cut them to make them shorter than they were. If I cut them any shorter my ass will fall out and you will be able to see it."
"Good. I like looking at your butt."
"But everyone will be able to see it!"
"Good. The world needs more sexy butt."
"嫌だ！" No way

She told me that she often cuts her clothes to make them shorter and cuts the neck of her shirts to reveal more skin. I love that.

I was talking to the massage therapist one time and she told me that in college, her boyfriend used to make her wear shitty clothes that revealed no skin and beat her up on occasion. She felt like she couldn't wear sexy fashionable stuff. I don't know what is going on inside the heads of these guys. Why wouldn't they want their girls to be hot?

On the other hand, there are times when I feel like the girls I'm dating try to 'wimp out' my fashion. My ex girlfriend really wanted me to wear American brands like 'Abercrombie & Fitch'. That brand's look is distinctly American and since I'm not American I can't stomach it. Americans themselves are fine. I like their movies and their music- I just don't want to pay a crap load of money look like a preppy college kid or a rich boy on his way to the country club- when I'm clearly not. There is a lack of congruency. To me it's about as absurd as dressing like a 'wigger'.

She told me to get a polo shirt, pop the collar and wrap the sweater around. I was like, "Are you fo fucking real?"
"But it's soooooo cute!"
"You buy it for me, I buy you a maid outfit, we do cosplay at home. Sweet deal."
"嫌だ！"

会いたい？

I never use English with the nailist. But sometimes I do in messages.

Me: Nailist... I miss you...

Nailist: Me too.

Nailist: I like it, mango and lemon- *Bday present I gave

Me: Cool. ところで、日曜日に会わない？
Won't you meet me on Sunday?

Nailist: 会いたい？
Do you want to meet me?

I put my feelings out there and now you just want more. This was why I dumped you last time. This game of 'me chase and reassure you' does not strike me as fun. I'd rather not play. It's not just this, it's everything I say to you. I wonder how you would react if every time you said something nice to me I responded with, "Really? I don't believe you. Really? You aren't lying? Do you really mean it?"
The way you do it to me. What kind of impression would I leave? I understand, verbal reassurance is required, but other girls don't do it on every word I say. Maybe you just hit a nerve on a bad day. I should just go to bed. I won't respond to your message though.