Sunday 3 April 2011

More than I let on

I think about my ex girlfriend and my ex ex GF more than I let on. I wonder what they are doing. If they are OK. I want to show my feelings and concern for them and just talk like friends. I know it can't happen just so easily like that so I push my thoughts of them to the back of my mind and try to move on in some way.

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  1. i think you're doing good by staying away... me and a friend were talking about this yesterday, cuz we both have exes who "don't want us", but won't stay the fuck away... we feel like these guys are thinking that they don't want us but don't want anybody else to have us either. it's really lame and makes us feel miserable.

    anyways, you can't have your cake and eat it too. but hang in there ^_-

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  2. Its not like I want to be around my exes, it just feels like a person who is such a big part of your life disappearing suddenly one day, never to be contacted again feels like...death. I genuinely care for their well being. Just a short message would help my peace of mind.

    Incidentally, my ex did contact me with a short message, but I know why she wants to meet up and I don't want to go through another process of saying, "Sorry I can't be with you. My hearts not in it. At least not the level you want me to be at so I know you will live in constant disappointment." I can't do this again.
    Just a little update on life and how it goes is enough. But I know I can't get that so it makes me sad.

    I'm trying to be a man and be strong about this and switch off the emotion, but sometimes the feelings rush in before I realize and flood me before I can switch them off...

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  3. aww... well you're doing good! hang in there!

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